How has it been so long
I have been quiet and it doesn't mean I don't have anything to say. It does mean that I haven't known how to sit down and put it into words. There has been a lot on my mind. Tom's birthday is August 25 and I get anxious just thinking about it. He will have been gone 7 months on his birthday. Somedays it seems like just yesterday that I got that phone call. Today is one of those days. The pain is fresh and new today. I am giving myself time to feel these emotions in hope that the day will come when they aren't as strong. But I am also giving myself the right to be happy, to find joy in the small things and the big things in life.The best part of my life is always Paul. He brings such laughter and joy. I noticed the other day that we have formed our own language. It makes sense to no one but us. I accidentally used one of our words the other day and everyone looked at me as if I were insane. I just smiled and started over. We have been going to the movies this summer. We have seen Harry Potter (of course), Stardust, Bourne Ultimatum and a few others. I have enjoyed them all. Larry came down last weekend and went to see Stardust with us. He wasn't thrilled at the choice but came out of the movie theatre glad that he had gone.
Work has kept me very busy. I have been in more training classes than I can handle with still more to come. It has been enlightening but then working in Human Resources is enlightening. Some of the employee issues have earned nick names so that I can keep them straight. Did you know that some people think it is perfectly okay to disappear from work for a week or more and not tell anyone where they were? I have had my fill of those cases.
I was exposed to viral spinal meningitis this week. Great. I am ignoring the headache, pain and stomach ails. The doctor can't do anything for me if I have it so why bother going. I am at home taking it easy with my log of work. I had meningoccoal meningitis when I was 14. Now, that was awful. I could just have a regular old virus too. Who knows? If it gets worse, I will call the doctor's office.
I have read some books this summer as well. Harry Potter was by far my favorite one. My therapist just recommended another one for me too. She is beginning to understand what goes on in my mind. I don't know which of us is scared more by this prospect. I think she is. I have to trust her when she says that I am making significant progress and am working hard.
Love to all.
posted by Louise @ 2:49 PM
2 Comments:
I had some of the same feelings last night as I read the article in TIME about Billy Graham, and he feelings after death of his wife - remembering. Have you seen Trudy's Blog on the 25th anniversary of her first husbands death?
Love ya, and am looking forward to Labor Day.
I'm looking forward to seeing Stardust. I read the book a long time ago. I don't remember much of what happened, but I do remember thinking that it was a good book. As far as HP7. I only read a few of the others so when I started HP7, I didn't understand much of what I was reading. I'll have to try it again and give it another try.
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