Inside My Mind

Happy New Year?

I just realized that I haven't said anything about the coming of the new year. Mostly, I sat down and thanked God that 2006 had come to an end. It was a very rough and stressful year for us. The loss of family, a home, and the loss of friends. It was a bad year and good riddance I say.

The new year has had a rough start. There was the loss of Laura that has overshadowed me. I was in Santa Clara this week and was acutely aware of the loss. She was an earthly angel who has gone home. Her loss sent me emotional stress levels over what I can tolerate at any one time. I am acutely aware that the depression is more than I can handle. It is manifesting itself in some disturbing ways.

So, I have started the hunt for a new doctor. I see him tomorrow. I hope it goes well. I am actually sick so I need to see a doctor. But I need his recommendation on something else. I have talked with Paul about what is going on and he agrees that my needs have outgrown the person I was seeing. I know that I can get through this with his help and with God's.

Focal season has begun at work. For those that don't remember, Focal is the time that Intel does performance reviews and raises for all of our employees worldwide. It is kind of like tax time for accountants, 95,000 people, rated on their performance and allotted money. :-) It's a marathon of numbers and manager coaching. It could be stressful but I am trying to relax through it all.

Love to all.
xoxoxoxox

posted by Louise @ 10:28 AM